Dexter is my name. I response to Dex and Density and Dex-xy too. This is a personal blog, so please don't restrain me from expressing myself, how-so-ever. I can get cranky, I can get mad, I can be whatever I want, I can criticize, I can be nice, and last, I can be anything and everything. Welcome to my world, where life is not only ups and downs, it is also red,orange,yellow,green,blue,indigo,violet. Life is a rainbow, and sometimes a dull one, however, if we embrace it well, it will be beautiful.
Is a walk under my void deck. But I were only looking out.
I like walking, alone or with company, but not with most people.
Maybe those that I find able to be as solemn as I am.
Of course, while taking a long stroll around.
Enjoy the breeze and smell of the after-rain.
Yet again, I can name many friends living near me.
But maybe only one or two are 'qualified' to accompany me.
Ok, that was mean, but I really meant it.
I don't really know why the neighborhood feels so much better.
Than my house, maybe its four-walled and anything is reflected back at me.
Maybe my thoughts and feels just keeps coming back and never leaving.
Maybe I should take a walk now and then, reflect and ponder.
Tonight maybe possible, later, or maybe saturday night.
I have to take a stroll on of these days, or I am dead.
Anyhow, I have about another month, which can be long.
But, I can do it. I need to be 18 soon! ASAP.
Not that I like getting older, but rather the new identity I gain.
Oh, and once I gain it, there's no turning back.
Adulthood. Hell or Heaven.
I hope I will make sound decisions, soon. Oh well.
Listen to what it says - DEXTER!
There maybe times where I couldn't think.
Whether or not, this will be worth it.
The time I held, the time I cried.
Will this thing last, or shall I give up.
I soooooo want to hear your voice.
I kneeeew that life isn't fair.
But why am I still fighting?
FOR YOU.
I want to say I am listening now.
Cried out loud like how I felt.
Why can't this thing be more clear.
Listening to what I said,
oh this miricle I hoped.
Why ain't anything happening to me?
I stepped down.
With a whisper I could say,
a million and one things about you.
OHHH, whyyyy, ain't you leaving.
It kept meeeee, still dreaming.
And off to the winds like how it should have been.
(should have been)
I wondered why this thing isn't going to be smooth.
And I and I and I, keeping it inside, its tearing me up,
pulling me down, and holding me tight.
I should have listened to the pleads, I had.
(OK, this is like a first song I published on my blog.)
(Don't know if its nice, I forgotten the tune.)
(JH! See if can get a tune!)
(OK LIKE BHB, I dont think its nice, not yet!)