Thinking aloud.
Monday, July 26, 2010 7:13 PM
Thought 1 - What made me wake up early this morning.
Wake up time - 6.50am AUTO!
Shock-o-meter - 10.5/10
Firstly, I don't know how/why I woke up at 6.50.
And it was automatic, and before my 3 alarms rang!
Woke up and got an sms from JOJO, at 6.30, then replied.
And slept for 5 s and another 1 came in.
Irritated, and woke up to bath.
Maybe, JOJO woke me up.
Or maybe I want to be early for lesson, for once in a few weeks.
Thought 2 - Can emotion be copied and passed onto others like the original.
Person being copied - JOJO
Success-o-meter - 11/10!
JOJO was angry to day, for whatever reason.
And he needs alone time, then.
I tried to copy him, and made myself give cold shoulder to JOJO, like he did in the morning.
Then even jiewei feels the tension, LOL.
Then I told him I just wanted one thing.
After awhile, he said 'IM SORRY.'
Done, cut the acting and everyone was like 'what?'
LOL, cannot blame them, they havent see me act before!
HEHEHE, so they thought I was mad, especially JOJO. xD
There you go, I'm done, I know know adays, my posts are short and not my style.
Will try to post something next week!
Trusting myself.
Sunday, July 25, 2010 2:07 AM
HEEELLLLOOOO PEOPLE.
Its currently like 2 am in the morning.
LOL. I was playing MAPLE! HEHEHHE.
Anyways, a big apology for the heated(?) argument on my blog again.
I don't want to explain, HAHA. Ages of decay will follow if I did.
Lets move onto the main topic.
On Friday, 3 other people made my day.
JOJO, JIAYI, MARISSA.
FILMING!
Marissa agreed to help my group film the BLAW vid.
And I brought my red shawl which I used for CNY,
as her dress! LOL, she sure look dam epic in the vid de lohh.
Cant wait to see the class' reaction(s) on thurs!
HOHO, sad thing is, I still need a formal wear, but somehow,
I should just wear what I have, no mood to shop, MAPLE better. LOLOL.
Tues BMGT, and my group's PPT is not ready yet!!
Going back to my story, the 4 of us cabbed to TOYPAYOH.
Cabbing was funny, we were like looking at our watches, waiting for 8pm to hit.
Then we chat and chat, and joke of 'Uncle, 8 le mah? If not we are not boarding!' arose.
HEHE, FUNNY PEOPLE, FUNNY PLACE, FUNNIER LIFE.
Reached TPY, and headed down to return ChanPing his camcorder!
Thanks bro, OWE YOU ONE!
And went for dinner! We had a FAMILY DINNER!
Ordered the roasted set, half a chicken, roast meat and pork.
Starting, it felt weird, like sick babies who were excited over sharing food like a family.
We looked at each other and smiled/giggled/stared.
Dine in! It was some sort of nice, and (not) surprisingly, I ate the most.
Took Marissa's rice and ate them all!
Then the other 2 watched, LOL.
After dinner was talking time! I think we chatted for 1 hour or more.
Topics were; primary school days, how-i-wish-i-was-young, and confessions.
LOL, I really can't believed that I had enough confidence to make it through!
Thanks guys, again!
I shall go, there will not be anything additionally this time.
See you! Thanks for reading!!
DEXTER.
YEAH, right.
Monday, July 19, 2010 11:41 AM
* NEWER NEW *
So I shall say, FYI too,
That you/someone else is stalking me.
If you don't have anything for you to stalk,
Then what are you doing? URMMM.
And yes, we are strangers, like I said earlier,
I am not concerned about what you think of me.
But rather, how you think of others.
So what the heck would I want you to write about me for?
Diaos, please read, then talk.
Anyways, I am not writing this because I want to flame you,
Its my blog, I just write what I want to say.
And yes, I did take your post and talk about you.
Do you want me to credit you? I can.
Secondly, if you want to say that you are angry,
Please use proper words, f#$k off, doesn't mean a thing to me.
Sorry, but didn't you just mention that I am a stranger?
No explanations are needed.
YAYA, you wont care right?
So I can write about anything and everything I want.
What's the problem?
PS : FUCK OFF and OUT OF MY LIFE. - from the person above, back to him.
* End of NEWER NEW *
* NEW *
Oh, stalker? I guess you are too.
And again, now you are finally opening up.
Finally saying something huh?
Where were you, or rather, where was your voice/fingers,
when you should be saying something?
Away? Or behind the scenes?
So what if I anyhow infer? Don't you? Do you dare admit.
Whatever, man, boy, etc.
Pardon my english? I read and only get what I think you were saying.
Like someone said, if you dislike something about someone, go directly to them.
Making it so general makes others misunderstand, boy.
So follow that someone, okay?
* End NEW *
How can it be like that?Life is so dramatic, sometimes tramatising.
And makes people do things we don't want to.
And ironic at it.
Someone who is unfit to say anything, said something.
And was I supposed to react or slap you on the face?
Even if I don't want to feel, I can't.
So let me tell you this.
I am not concern about what you think of me.
I am more concern about how you see others.
So what you are in a higher stage of education?
Does that make you any different from your ex-classmates?
They are, too, in the same stage, or even higher stage, as you.
So are you trying to tell everyone that everyone in your past are just LOSERS to you?
I don't mean to get offended, because I am a stranger to you.
But, I pity those whom are your sec/pri school friends.
They are being called losers for what? Being around you?
Please grow up, boy.
I am not saying I am very matured or anything.
I am saying that if you want to direct anything to anyone(s),
Please do it 'smarter'.
Unless, you really felt that you,
All your ex-classmates are losers.
So be it, I hope your friends will appreciate you.
And its time for me to be childish like you.
I hope they don't, because you don't deserve them,
Anyway, they are just losers to you in 3 years time right?
HIASHH, wasted so much energy typing these.
I doubt he will even reflect, neh mind.
At least, I tried, or more to the fact, I said what I wanted to.
SHESH, its time I move on, with my friends, and not criticizing them.
And no, I don't regard you as a friend.
We are strangers, remember?
I have nth more to say. CIAOS.
Sorry readers, its like a hate post, please take mind.
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Conversation in LT 38
With YiYing, Marissa and Dexter.
D: Oh, YiYing! Yesterday JOJO and me played with Marissa!
YY: What?! Play Marissa?
M: NO! Play WITH me LAH! As in as in..
D: Ya lohh, its gen ta wan, not RA de.
M: See lah, YY so RA one!
YY: Dotss. * giggles*
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Flushes like the waves.
Friday, July 16, 2010 11:45 PM
This week was weird. Seriously.I wanted to say it wasn't, but it really is.
Drama and tensions are at the top.
I wanted to watch, but end up being watched.
Really, I hope that I can take no stand, but I had.
And now, I don't think this drama will ever end.
I don't know why.
However, one thing arose from these situations.
The thing called 'disputes harm relationships' statement.
I knew it was false, I really believed it, but I don't see it.
I wanted to scream, wanted to soar to the skies, and quarrel with my heart.
But I knew that if I leave, I will be avoiding disputes.
Somehow, 'hush-hush' unhappiness comes up.
And everyone's moods goes down.
And disputes are not present, solutions are deemed as a singular choice.
And with rage I see from people's hearts and eyes.
I am not one to judge, I am part of this unhappiness.
I don't know if letting the cat out of the bag will do any good.
Neither do I know if I am to be targeted if I do.
And of course, letting it naturally pass will be nonsense.
Fine, I shall keep my mouth shut, and continue what I did.
At least, I thought about these, have you?
POEM TIME! Reflections are the best way to learn, humanity and the world.
World of eyes - DEXTER!
From his eyes, many things can be told.
A glimpse of it, and I know.
What others don't, I do.
Maybe I'm like that, or maybe life's like that.
One single species, one united heart.
Maybe that's why we understand one another.
Pains sufferings, joy, laughter.
And from one's eyes, reflection of their feelings are revealed.
I would learn to read them, as how I read my own.
They are read as feelings, but more towards their experiences.
Maybe we have to learn things this way.
Maybe life's different from how we used to see it when we were young.
But I still hold hopes and wishes I had when I was young.
Humanity as ONE.
Monday, July 12, 2010 2:33 PM
HEHE, am now in INFA lecture. Kind of repetition I guess.Its like trading account lohh. Just that now we do it directly in the P/L.
HOHO, hiashh, lecturer talk and talk. And people like marissa and joel are off.
And GekHeong and JN are slacking? or/and complaining the lecturer.
As for me, I am now not even listening, and pretending that I am listening to her talk.
I think nothing is going into my head. LOL.
And latest info : JN is listening to songs.
Marissa, just wanted to die, and she so cui.
GekHeong just asked me why my webpage got correction lines.
LOL, this shows one thing, I am like damn bored.
I shall type more abit bahhs.
And to people saying now my blog abit emo.
This post is not OK! RAWR.
HEHEH, I am still enjoying life.
And playing maple with budds like khai and wh!
YAY. But now I am unable to lvl!
I am stuck at lv 30, waiting for the both of them to reach 2nd job.
SIANS.
But its ok, at least we can play tgt. HOHO.
I shall end it here. I go do poem le.
BRB. Thanks for reading.
Just that - DEXTER!
I was a rowing boat.
I was a crushing wave.
I was a underlying current.
I was a passing fish.
I was a floating island.
I am the king of the ocean.
Its my life.
Monday, July 5, 2010 2:34 PM
This should be like the 10th day since I last blogged.I, am again, blogging because of my urge to express my emotions.
Sorry for readers reading my blog for entertainment.
I hope the next post will be something nice. HOHOHO.
Depends anyway. See how it goes.
Remember the post where I talked about body being unimportant?
I still think that way, I still think that memories are the most important!
Maybe what I am blogging about is related to memories.
I dont know, but I think so. That's cause I am recalling some events, I think.
From my recalls, I dont think anyone offended me or anything.
Especially recently. And no, it isn't about the STRANGER incident.
Or maybe. I don't know, I shall keep writing, no use deciding which which's.
Nowadays, school started like normal. I guess that's the 2nd sem 'feel'.
Came to school in draggs, so unlike the first day of school.
HAHAH, late as usual. LIKE DUHH.
Fine, I am upset? unhappy? NO.
I can put a word to it. I think the closest will be empty.
Yes, I feel empty. And NOT THE ALONE EMPTY.
More of the 'People' empty.
Urm, how do I put it into words. Thats tough.
I guess I will call it empty like not together or in sync with others.
Sometimes, I wonder if I have actors and actresses with me.
I don't know if Friends are really Friends. Hard to figure.
I really tried to treat everyone like friends, but I just feel 'empty'.
Maybe its me lahh. LOL.
I shall give myself and others more time.
Maybe I am not too confident of myself bahhs.
Lets just trust my friends, K!
POEM AGAIN!
Living Life - DEXTER!
Life may be of ups and downs,
But it's the perspective of the man who looks at it,
Man who chooses are wise,
Those who don't are smart,
And for those who challenge it are really living life.
Dexter is my name. I response to Dex and Density and Dex-xy too. This is a personal blog, so please don't restrain me from expressing myself, how-so-ever. I can get cranky, I can get mad, I can be whatever I want, I can criticize, I can be nice, and last, I can be anything and everything. Welcome to my world, where life is not only ups and downs, it is also red,orange,yellow,green,blue,indigo,violet. Life is a rainbow, and sometimes a dull one, however, if we embrace it well, it will be beautiful.
